Not Quite The Christmas Miracle I Was Hoping For.

Monday, December 28, 2009


Yes people that is snow. And yes, that is snow falling on Christmas Day (err night.) I know I said that all I wanted for Christmas was for some of the white stuff to fall, but in the back of my mind I was really hoping that Santa would instead bring me a positive pregnancy test. Well, it looks like he got my first letter, but forgot about the second. Yep, Christmas morning we got our final negative pregnancy test. Our last chance before some serious medical intervention came and went and starting today we begin injectibles and then insemination or IVF depending on how many little egglets I produce. In short, now the fun begins.

I thought I would be nervous about the whole process, but the truth is that I am really ready to get this ball rolling. The only thing that has my stomach in knots is the timing of all of this. Honestly, it couldn't be any worse. Basically for the next 14 days I have to be at the doctor every morning at 9 for a blood test and ultrasound. Of course this is a holiday week which means that school is closed, my sitter is out of town, and any friends who would have been able to watch my little man are also visiting their own families. This means that EVERY DAY my two year old and I get to go to the doctor together. As I said fun times. Today a TV show on my iPod and a bag of jelly beans did the trick, but I have a feeling I am going to have to get more creative in the coming weeks. Note to self: move closer to family if we are every going to do this again.

I'm actually in a pretty good place about where we are at with all of this and I am very much looking forward to this being the end of our journey (fingers crossed.) "Taking shots" is about to take on a new meaning in this house, although I'm thinking it's not a bad idea to add a real shot to go with my fertility shots. Nah, maybe just a giant glass of wine.

16 comments :

Anonymous said...

LIKE OMGGGGG You had to take your OWN son to the Doctor ALLLLL by your self???? Are you ok?? Are you sure?? I totally think you like need a vacation...IT MUST HAVE BEEN SOOOOO STRESSFUL YUM!!!!

Jodi said...

I agree waiting rooms unless they are at a for kids office are the worst at this age. Watch your moods you are starting to inject emotional bitch in a bottle into your veins tonight. I am excited for you! I wonder why people write comments like that? If they find your life aggravating why read your blog?

Yummy Mummy said...

That is seriously what you got from that post? Wow you really are reaching. Most doctors stress that children should not be brought to these appointments because they can be really long, and a two year old can be very disruptive to EVERYONE else around them. Also being on a table with a probe stuck inside you or a needle in your arm makes it very difficult to control him. You so obviously do not have children because you have NO IDEA about how they can be in these type of situations. I could care less about disrupting my visit, but I don't need to ruin everyone else's appointment either. People like you are the ones that would likely complain about the person who brought her kid with her.

Anon you really are a miserable bitch. Has anyone ever told you that?

xoxo

Julie Q said...

Awww. How frustrating.. I'm sorry to hear that :( Maybe 2010 is the year wwwwweeeeee get preggers? Fingers crossed :)

Yummy Mummy said...

JQ I love that idea!!!!!! Bring on the babies!

xoxo

Yummy Mummy said...

Thanks Jodi! I am so hoping that the Clomid prepared me for this but I have been warned about those mood swings. Can I apologize in advance to everyone around me????

Anonymous said...

Has anyone ever told you that you're ridiculous. Try posting something relevant. Actually don't because then I wouldn't have my daily entertainment about the girl who supposedly has it all, yet still bitches about every aspect of her life. Oh and by the way, nice sparkly earbuds. NOT!! Ok i'm done know..off I go to my miserable bitch life that actually has meaning.

Jo said...

Actually, added aggro w/the dr's apts: at least one office I've been to bans kids under 16 to reduce the risk of swine flu.

Lulu said...

good luck with the injectibles! the daily dr's visits are a total chore, but worth it in the end. after a year of trying, we finally got pregnant with injectibles so i am crossing my fingers that they work for you too!! and yes, apologizing in advance to everyone is a good idea -- it's crazy what all those hormones can do to your personality. my husband said it was like waking up with an entirely new wife!

Anonymous said...

Best of luck to you! My twins were conceived by injectables/IUI, and it's a long process but hopefully it'll be your first and last time doing this. You're lucky your RE's office allows kids at all... mine doesn't, even for ultrasound or blood work appointments.

I'm currently doing my 2nd IVF cycle and will have my egg retrieval surgery on New Year's Eve day! Ugh! I've had to go for appointments every morning for the past week (excluding Christmas Day, thank goodness) and can't wait to get this part of it over with. Not easy, but hopefully worth it in the end! Best of luck to you!

Kriss said...

I think it's awesome your dr's office will let you bring kids. When I was seeing my reproductive endocrinologist, there was a no children allowed policy. -kriss

Yummy Mummy said...

Thank you all for your well wishes!!! And best of luck to those of you who are also trying!!! Please let me know how things work out for you, I'll be keeping my fingers crossed!

xoxo

ThatGirl39 said...

Hey YM. Just wanted to wish you luck - you are so brave to not only go through this in the first place, but also to write about it (especially with that Troll that keeps rearing it's ugly head!). I'm not sure I could've put myself through IVF so I think its testament to how much you want this baby (or babies). Sending much love and New Years happiness to you and your family! xx

280Days said...

Just found your blog last night and have been giggling away at your adorable little man. My daughter is around the same age and gets up to much of the same mischief you write about! If we think the terrible two's are bad I've heard "threenagers" can be even more trying. Gulp!

Best of luck with your forthcoming treatment. A close friend went through this in 2008 and I spent a recent Christmas party cuddling her gorgeous 5 month old daughter. Keep strong. It's one hell of a journey, but the outcome can be amazing! Best of luck to you and your husband.

Anonymous said...

YM wanted to wish you luck, I got pregnant with my son in the first round of injectibles, he's now 1.5 and I just had a little girl without assistance- it does happen! I had two losses and then couldn't get pregnant, so did the 14 month wait just like you. It's tough and the process sucks but you will forget all of it as soon as you are pregnant (which I think will be soon)!

Keep up the blog- you are very entertaining...

Polly said...

Yum, I have every finger and toe crossed for you. I can understand not wanting to take you LM to the Dr, if he is anything like my LM - and I suspect he is by reading your posts, it would be a nightmare both for you who is experiencing this stressful time and everyone else as well.

Take care lovely lady.